Finding Hope in the Struggle: How Faith in God Led Me Through Darkness

In my deepest pain, and in my deepest struggles, the only one constant that was always there for me was Jesus. It didn’t matter what I went through what happened to me or how hard I struggled, he was always there, holding my hand helping me through and helping me heal.

I noticed that there was something different about me. Something that made me different from others around me. I didn’t have the same mindset. I didn’t have the same outlook on life as them and my focus was never something that was superficially greater than me. 

There were times where I was told why don’t you win an Oscar so you could thank me? Why aren’t you like so and so famous person. It used to get me down it made me depressed. It made me not want to really too much of my life at that point.

But there is always one I could go to, to help me to see the light in the darkness. I felt like I made my own cocoon to protect me. So that there would always be a little part of me that would come out, at least when people least expected it . But I always got the best of everyone. No matter how much they hurt me. No matter what they did to me to create me into the person that I am today.

I learned that the more I prayed, the more I sought God, the more I started to heal. And it wasn’t an instant heal like people think is going to happen weird when they start looking to God for help. It was a gradual heal. It was slow. And it was all in his time.

Every small thing that I healed and overcame, painted the picture of something that was much bigger than I could possibly imagine. And it wasn’t me doing the healing. Like many of these so-called healers want you to believe. 

It was my faith in God that helped me to heal the parts of me that I thought were impossible to heal. He was always there for me, even when I thought I had no one to count on. And through my struggles, He never failed me.  

So when it feels like all hope is lost, just know that there is something bigger on the way. God has a plan for you and it’s up to you to listen when he speaks to you. 

All hope is not lost. It’s just waiting for you to stop and listen. To seek God in all that you do. Don’t lose faith if things aren’t happening the way you want it to. There is a reason and it will show itself as you continue to have faith in God.